Sephora Taryn
Azure Vampire
Student/Warrior Kitty
played by seph [/size][/i][/center]
Posts: 20
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Post by Sephora Taryn on Feb 27, 2013 20:28:07 GMT -5
Seph was laying down in a field of flowers, sure that was pretty girly as far as her usual dreams went but she wasn't really fighting it at the moment. She was laying there in this field and she was holding a very pretty red rose, there weren't any other roses at all in the field, the field was covered in deep green grass and dandelions, yet here she was with a rose, she wasn't surprised by it at all. She was twirling it in her fingers, twirling it back and forth, she was wearing a red flowing dress that matched the deepness of the rose, the more she twirled the rose, the happier she became as the color just became brighter and brighter in brighter in her eyes...Until all of sudden Seph felt a pain in her finger.
She looked down and saw the blood forming on her finger, it hurt, it hurt so bad. She wondered why it would hurt so much. It was only a prick. Why did it hurt so much when it was only just a little small prick? Seph looked down at her finger and noticed the blood dropping on the grass, but there was too much blood on the grass for it to be from her finger. It couldn't be from her finger. She frowned and looked up at the sky, her tranquil moment was over, because it was raining, as a drop hit her arm she looked down on it to notice that it was not rain at all, but blood. It was blood coming down on her. She stood and began to run.
She was afraid for her life, there was blood so much blood and it was coming down. She finally stopped because she was out of breath and there was no end in sight she looked down at herself and saw the blood there, the blood was every where on her, on her dress on her face, her hair. She was soaked in it, not only was she soaked in it but so was the field, the field where she was happy, but it was gone and ruined and there was nothing left for her to do but scream.
Seph opened her eyes and looked around her room. It was dark, and she wasn't sure why she had such a weird feeling sitting in her chest. Sure, she had just had one of the freakiest dreams ever, but it didn't explain the weird feeling she was having. It was almost content. She was still half asleep though, and she didn't see the need to actually move, so instead she closed her eyes and took a deep breath and tried to forget that freaky dream. At least it wasn't the pool dream again, but then again she may have liked the pool one far more than she had liked the one she just had. Either way, she was trying to forget it.
As she was doing that though, she started to feel like she was forgetting something important. Something that really needed to be remembered but for the life of her in her half sleep daze, she could not figure out. What would she need to remember? Did she have an assignment for class due that she had forgotten about? No that wasn't it...She was not remotely sure what she could be forgetting and the more she thought about it, the more she actually woke up. She didn't want to though, she had such a feeling of contentment that she saw no need to wake up, so she snuggled into the person lying next to her, she turned over so that she was facing him and that was when it hit her.
Seph's eyes flew open once more. Him. Seth. He was here. All the events that happened the previous day had come rushing back to her. Seth had shown up to her dorm room and he had been completely drunk. They had talked. He had given her back her mother's necklace which as Seph looked over Seth's head, she noted was right on her bedside happened. Shit. Everything that had happened the day before had actually happened. Suddenly she was wishing that the dream she had just now was reality and that real events were all just something that would go away in a few days.
Because Seth didn't just come and talk. They had kissed. Seph remembered loving kissing him because it had been so long since they had kissed. But then they stopped, she remembered that. She also remembered that they had started again shortly after...and then he had been on top of her...and she had only been in his shirt and then...
Fireworks...Seph blushed at the thought. They had sex. She would have been lying if she said that it had not been amazing. It was amazing. Sex with Seth had always been amazing. Always, yet still her stomach filled with dread. Sex. They had had sex. That was not good. Didn't he hate her? Wasn't she un important him? Did he just come over so that he could get laid? Seph was freaking out, even then as she thought it she felt her chest rising and falling faster as she began to feel like her air supply was being choked away. What the fuck was she going to do...How could she be so stupid as to sleep with him? She was supposed to hate him for what he did! How the hell was she hating him if she was having sex with him? Hate sex?
She almost groaned out loud at how exasperated she was but she thought that would wake him. Did she want to do that? She wasn't sure. She looked at him, like really looked at him and her heart began to melt a little bit. His face was peaceful, the rise and fall of his chest was nothing like hers. He was beautiful. He always was. He was also completely naked which was making her blush madly. What the hell was she going to do? She almost reached out to touch his face, but then didn't. She didn't know what to do. She needed to think. He seemed to move though, as if he might wake up and Seph didn't know what to do, so she did what she does best.
She spazzed. Seph rolled off the bed and then rolled under it, hitting her head on the underside of it. She clapped her hand over her mouth to cover the groan that she was pretty sure was going to come out. Shit shit shit shit! That was all she was thinking. Now what? What was she going to do now? What if he left? Not even trying to see if she was okay? She wouldn't know what to feel. This was just a booty call, wasn't it? She was dumb enough to fall for it. Fuck Fuck Fuck.
She could feel him waking up and at this point, Seph was stuck. She would just have to wait and see what he was going to do, and something was telling her that was not going to end well.
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Seth Horus
Crimson Vampire
Student...sorta
played by reesa [/size][/i][/center]
It's woven in my soul, I need to let you go
Posts: 44
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Post by Seth Horus on Mar 14, 2013 23:08:35 GMT -5
”I love you”the words slipped from his drunken lips as he held her bare body close to his own as he so often had and slipped off into a dream world, slipped off to a place where he could hold her body close to his and it was alright, nothing would happen to her because of some psycho and she wouldn’t hate him because of the thigns he had said only because he wanted her to be safe from said mad man and didn’t mean a word of.[/i]
She moved against him and he felt himself waking ever so slightly. Damn woman was always moving around, couldn’t she just lie still for once and revel in the sleep they were both enjoying? Seth was one of those Crimsons who slept like the dead and it took a lot to convince him to wake. She usually knew how to make him want to wake up though. Even still, she never seemed to sleep long before she was shifting and moving around next to him. And sometimes that was okay because she was waking up to do more of the activity that had exhausted them so in the first place and he had no problem getting back to that.
In his time in between awake and asleep, as he sighed happily to have her body against his, he wasn’t quite sure what was reality and what was a dream and his memories hadn’t yet caught up with him, hadn’t yet told him that he was not in a good spot right now. That this wasn’t allowed for him right now. He was just in that blissful state in between awake and asleep and memories, though he wasn’t sure if they were memories or if they were his dreams right then.
Her bare body pressed against his as it had been so often before. Her lips meeting his as hungry as his own and the fire that always consumed them whenever they touched. The fact that all she wore was his shirt and nothing else. The fact that she still wore his shirt despite… despite… despite what? He pushed the thought down. He was still in blissful sleep. He was still focusing on the way she looked beneath him in this dream. The way that she met his passion with her own and never backed down in absolutely anything. The fact that he was an ass but she knew how to handle that.
He started waking more as these memories, these thoughts, jarred this idea in him that that was wrong for some reason. That he shouldn’t be thinking about that, because what had happened the night before was not okay. But why wouldn’t it be okay? He refused to think about the L word but it was a driving force within him whether he wanted to admit it or not. But the idea of being with her was wrong. He couldn’t be with her. Those thoughts were a stab in his heart, but they were true. Wait, why were they true?
The more he thought, the further he pushed himself into awareness and being awake. And her moving didn’t help him in his quest to stay in this blissful sleep where the whole events of before did not happen. And then suddenly the heat and the warmth of her body next to his was gone and a frown, a sleepy frown but a frown, tugged at his lips and he woke up more fully. With his eyes open, more thoughts came back to him. Fuck. Fuck. He was supposed to be sstaying away from her. It was better if he stayed away from her because he couldn’t explain to her that he meant not a word of what he had said because of Julian and not being able to tell her hurt her and the look on her face when she was hurt killed him.
The last thing he remembered was getting drunk. And he had been an idiot and had come all the way here, hadn’t he. Like a genius. He groaned. What the fuck had he told her while he had been drunk? It was a blur, he didn’t remember a damn thing. There were pieces and bits here or there but mostly it was a blank. Fuck. He shouldn’t even be here over night, he was pretty damn sure Julian would find about that sooner or later and then she was in danger. Fuck. He had gone on some stupid bender and had possibly cost her her life. Oh no. He wouldn’t let that happen, he would die before he let anyone lay a hand on her.
He pushed himself to sit up slightly and that was when he noticed he was naked. Okay, he usually slept naked so that was why it took him so long to notice, it wasn’t because he was oblivious or something. Though he had other good reasons to be a bit distracted. And knowing that he was naked in her room…they had done something more than sleep, hadn’t they? He ran his fingers through his hair. Fuck. Oh don’t get him wrong, he always loved sex with Seph. She was amazing and he loved being that close to her for male and asshole reasons but also for other reasons that had more to do with the L word he wouldn’t acknowledge.
He also was sort of pissed at himself that he couldn’t remember that more than just snippets.
It was more the fact that he knew she would be freaking out because she didn’t know the whole story of what was going on and that wasn’t fair to her. And again, because of Julian.
Speaking of Seph… He looked around her room and didn’t see her. And then he heard a groan and it was coming from under him—not in that way, thank you—and he couldn’t help the slight smirk. He knew he shouldn’t, but it was mostly because he should have guessed she would hide under the bed. The woman was strong, she was wonderful, and she was capable.
And she spazzed like no one’s business, she was the queen of it.
He pulled himself over to the edge and bent at his waist until he could see her under there. Well. There she was. Now what did he say? Fuck. What did he say? She wanted to ask her what he had said, she wanted to tell her that he hadn’t just used her for sex like she probably thought and he deserved that thought though he hated to think that she might be thinking that, he wanted to tell her the whole thing.
Most of all he wanted to tug her out gently, call her silly and tug her back into bed where they were going to stay for the rest of the day. For a month straight they had done that once, only leaving for food when it was absolutely necessary. Her poor roommate had been elsewhere for the entire month, mostly because his room was too messy for her to deal with. But he couldn’t do that, as much as he absolutely ached to. Instead he said something really stupid.
”Umm…morning? Under the bed can’t be comfortable” he said, waiting for her to freak out on him. At least he had to get points for not bolting…right?
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Sephora Taryn
Azure Vampire
Student/Warrior Kitty
played by seph [/size][/i][/center]
Posts: 20
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Post by Sephora Taryn on Mar 20, 2013 11:50:26 GMT -5
Seph was stubborn, and no not just stubborn like she wouldn't eat her peas when she was a little girl, no it went much farther than that. She was stubborn like, she would never do anything she didn't wanted. She would never admit to anything she didn't want to admit to. Maybe that was the problem. Maybe that was why everything had gone so horribly wrong in the one relationship she had ever had. It was the only relationship that she wanted. She knew that now, wasn't that how it always went though? You never really knew what you had until it was gone. That was how it always seemed to end up for anyone really, she never thought she would end up that way though. She never thought she would ever have anything that she didn't want to lose. Either way, it was too late for her to do anything about it now wasn't it? She was convinced it was all her own fault anyhow.
Maybe if she hadn't been so stubborn Seth wouldn't have done what he had done. Sure, she blamed him. She knew it was his fault and that she didn't make him do anything. She knew that logically, but some small part of her kept thinking. What if she had just told him she loved him? Told him she wanted to be with him? What then? Maybe she hadn't made her feelings clear enough. She thought that they had been though. She never dated anyone. Everyone in the entire school knew that, Seph was notorious boy hater. She wanted nothing to do with any of them because of some deep seated issues she had that she only talked about with Raine and her other friends. Even with her hatred of men though, she had let Seth in. Despite all of her efforts to keep him out, she had let him in. Was that not enough to show how she felt about him? Even when they had just started talking and only kissing, she thought that was enough but no, they took that even further when they had sex.
Then they kept having sex, all the time. Seph was happy about it, she was not going to lie but more over she thought that proved how much she cared about him. How had he not seen that? She thought it had been enough. She was apparently wrong. She had never actually said the words I love you, she had never even thought of saying them really. She was afraid, afraid to say them. She was too stubborn, even to say them. She didn't want to be perceived as weak or anything. She didn't bare to think about it now, because her own damn stubbornness had ruined everything for her and now she had nothing. Now she had nothing at all...
Seph blinked away tears as she thought about that. Things were just going to get worse now. Seth didn't want her she knew that, she wasn't going to let what just happened confuse her...she had heard from his own lips that she didn't matter to him so why should she even start hoping because of what had happened the night before?
And what happened the night before? Seth had come stumbling to her room drunk as hell and rambling. He had given back her mother's necklace which made Seph feel a little better, but not so much better about the whole situation. Then he had started rambling about how he couldn't let someone hurt her and Seph had been so confused and then they kissed and things had just gone down hill from there...or up hill depending on your point of view.
They had sex, Seph always enjoyed the sex, but now she was currently hiding under a bed because she was spazzing out about it. It left things in a confusing place. Did he want her or not? No! Her inner mind screamed, she was not going to do this to herself, she was not going to sit here under the bed and try and wonder about what it all meant, even if she could have sworn she had thought she heard him say I love you before they both fell asleep...
She frowned and shook her head the best she could from that small space. No, she was not going to do this, she was not going to torture herself. He hadn't said it, she had only dreamt it before she had that weird bad dream that woke her up. The sex didn't mean anything to him. She was just here and he was drunk, and if it hadn't been her it would have been some other girl. That thought made her stomach flip, made her want to hurt things...She stopped before she got too upset, the last thing she needed to do was get so upset that she kittied out underneath her bed with him still sleeping on top of it.
Speaking of him sleeping, she started to feel him move and she felt panic rising in her chest. She wanted him to come over to the side of the bed, see her there and pull her into his arms and tell her that everything was going to be okay. That was what she wanted. She knew that wasn't going to happen, so that was what was making her so damn spazzy.
She felt him move some more and she prayed that he wouldn't think she was a total nut case for just hiding under here as he slept. Before she even finish her thought processes though, there was his wonderful face looking at him from on top of the bed, all he said was um morning and Seph just stared at him, she blinked once, she didn't know what to say either. He said that under the bed couldn't be comfortable and Seph nodded a little bit.
She rolled and moved herself out from under it and stood up straight. She was naked, she knew this but she didn't feel like grabbing clothes at that moment. She was freaking out enough, she just needed to stand still. She ran her hand through her hair and spoke the first thing that came to her mind.
"Oh...Yeah Morning....Um...So like that's my bed your sleeping in..."she winced, what the fuck was wrong with her. That's my bed your sleeping in? No shit sherlock.
She sighed and looked at him, she knew that he was drunk last night, she wanted to see what he remembered. "So...Last night..."she didn't know what else to say. She was trying so hard not to freak out but, she figured they both knew that that was going to happen anyway. Words:1120 Muse: Epic Notes: Biggest. Spaz. Ever.
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Seth Horus
Crimson Vampire
Student...sorta
played by reesa [/size][/i][/center]
It's woven in my soul, I need to let you go
Posts: 44
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Post by Seth Horus on Apr 7, 2013 0:31:59 GMT -5
Seth didn’t know what to do with himself anymore. That was why he had gotten drunk last night, wasn’t it? Well, that and he had been with his best friend which tended to lead to him making bad decisions but that was entirely besides the point. He had gotten drunk last night because he had been in such a mood lately. All he did was sleep and mope around and think about how he had fucked shit up with Seph. Which was not what he usually did in the slightest. Usually he was moving on the second he had sex with a chick.
Yep, that was his usual method. Get them to fall for him, get them in bed, say it had been nice and move on. He had established quite the reputation for himself in that method at the Academy, one that he was oddly proud of. Or at least, he had been. Before he had decide to do something his best friend thought was utterly stupid and get the most stubborn girl, the most notorious man hater, in the entire damn school to fall for him. He liked challenges and if anyone in this place was a challenge, it was her.
And once he had started going after her, he had found out that that was a fucking understatement. No, it was the understatement of the year. She was stubborn and hard headed, she was stuck in her ways, she refused to admit she liked nything even if he could tell she did and he had to trick her into absolutely anything that seemed like a date and then wait for her to realize they had done it later. He had practically had to keep his affinity running the whole time just to keep her from gutting him.
But he loved her.
Fuck, he loved her. He had realized that the moment that he had seen her at Julian’s mercy in that damn nightmare house. The moment he had had to chose between his happiness and her very life. And he had chosen her life even if now he felt like a total mess. He had had to say some nasty things to her that haunted him still, telling her he didn’t care and that she didn’t matter to him. But the honest truth? He would do it again and again a million times if it meant she was safe. That was more important than his own happiness.
Her life would always mean more to him. And that scared him now that he realized that in it’s full power. So yeah, he had gotten drunk because he really didn’t want to think about that. He really didn’t want to think about any of it. He just wanted to put himself in a stupor and forget the whole world existed for a little while. Until he could figure out how to get around what Julian had said about killing her if she found out the truth. Or until he could move on.
Like that would happen.
But in his drunken stupor he had been exactly that, stupid. He had come to her room. In some ways, it was a good thing because he had to give her back her mother’s locket. He knew how much it meant to her and she deserved to have it back and he had just been too much of a chicken to get it to her. He was convinced she must hate him. She would have absolutely every right to hate him and he could enver blame her for it even though it made him want to die from how much that hurt every time tha thought came into his mind. But she had every right to.
But somehow they had managed to get into having sex. He hadn’t figured out that part yet because he had been drunk and he had been to the point where he had been black out drunk. He knew certain little bits and pieces but nothing specific and that worried him more than a little bit. He didn’t know what he had told her and that could be dangerous. Him just staying the night here could be dangerous.
She had spazzed, he realized this when he heard her groan and didn’t see her in the bed, which made him want to smile really. She was the queen of spazzing. She was just so damn good at it and he knew her well enough to know when she would do it, a fact that made him nearly want to smirk even if it really was inappropriate for him to do so. He just couldn’t help it. It made him feel special to know the girl behind the strong and capable woman that everyone else saw. She was, exactly that, strong and capable. But there was another side to her that he had always felt so privileged to see.
He had scooted to the edge of the bed and hung off it upside down to look at where she was hiding under the bed. And so intelligently all he could think to say was Morning, to which she just blinked at him and he felt incredibly awkward. He wanted to go back to the way they were, where he could tease her and she could yell at him but it would be wonderful. He wanted to call her beauty again and show her just how much he cared and how wonderful she was.
But he couldn’t.
Instead, he oh so eloquently told her that it couldn’t be comfortable down there. She started to shift to come out from under the bed and he moved back ot sit on the bed and give her room to do so. She stood before him, entirely naked, but he focused on her face, he felt like he hadn’t earned the right to look at her body despite them having sex the night before—which he still wasn’t sure how that had happened. She spoke saying that was her bed and he looked down at it for a moment before nodding and fully sitting up, so that way the blankets—her blankets—weren’t on him any more. As if he could stop offending her by being here if he stopped touching so much of her things.
He just nodded in answer though, what was he supposed to say to something like that?
She trailed off and he nodded a bit. Right, she probably wanted him out, that was what the sigh was for, right? Spazzing or not she was probably regretting being around a horrible person like him, she had stabbed him after all the last time they had met—with a stick but still. He pushed himself out of her bed and stood, careful not to get too close to her though he longed to with every fiber of his being. ”Right…last night…I’m sorry I bothered you coming in here all drunk like an idiot but…you did deserve to get your necklace back” he said, nodding a little. He wasn’t sure what she was getting at.
He frowned. Shit, he should just get out of here before he made it worse. She probably didn’t want him around, not after what he had said and done before. He should just go back to sleeping all day and night in his room like he hd been, wallowing like a pathetic loser. He shook his head and ran his fingers through his hair. ”I should probably…get out of your hair.” he muttered. He wanted to stay. SO badly. TO explain to her everything that had happened and make her see that he cared for her so deeply but he was scared to feel that way. But he couldn’t, not until he figured out how to deal with Julian. Until then she should move on, as much as it killed him to think that. But she hadn’t been drunk last night and she had allowed him to stay and had had sex with him and—he cut off that thought sharply. He didn’t remember what had happened last night. He had no right to hope like that.
Now if he could only find out where his pants had ended up…
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